Course Correction

My wife and I had an interesting conversation this evening. The realization that we need a course correction in our lives. Somewhere, I have slipped, so has my wife. Our scripture study is empty, our prayers are much the same, our temple worship, and Sunday meetings are not as effective as the used to be. Why? The realization that we are off course and not doing the little things diligently enough has caused us to see how we have drifted. For example, I don't get out of bed before the kids anymore. I used to get up before everyone in the house every morning so that I had some quiet time to study the scriptures. I prayed kneeling on the hard tile in the kitchen in an effort to keep myself alert and paying attention to my prayers, I don't do that anymore. I used to devour the Ensign, reading and rereading the articles. I used to be far more diligent in my callings, complaining about them far less. I need to change. I need to get back to doing those things. I need to get back to writing in my journal on a regular basis. I will start in the morning, I have set my alarm for 5 am so that I can have my quiet study time. I have spent the last 40 minutes reading conference talks. I am writing on my blog which I use as a journal.
Another thing that occurred to me today was that I keep praying that the Lord will lead me to somewhere where I am needed. If I am very honest with myself, I am needed right here right now. Not necessarily for a Church calling, but to help my parents, my family. I realize that this is not a permanent situation, but just maybe, this is where the Lord wants me right now. With that realization I came to the conclusion that maybe my prayers are not being answered because I am not asking the right questions. I believe this to be the case. I am going to have to alter my prayers somewhat until I start asking the correct questions.
A course correction, I am not sure how far off course I or my wife is, but I think it is important that we get back on course. I have started tonight, altering course by a few degrees. I don't want to go off course in another direction, small adjustments are best. I will make some adjustments, re-evaluate, and then adjust some more. I think that is the answer to what is going on in my life right now.
Just another thought, I have a wonderful wife. She is so good at recognizing that something is amiss, and even better at figuring out what it is. I owe so much of who I am to her. I know that I have changed a great deal in the last 16 years. I think overall the change has been good. I love my wife and I don't know what I would do without her. I know I would be in a lot worse shape than I am in now without her!