Peace

This weekend has been a very good one for me. It is interesting how you don't realize what a mess your head is until it clears. I am so glad that Barbie was able to help me clear my head on Thursday. I did not realized how truly crippled my thinking was.
My lesson in Elders Quorum yesterday went better than it has in a long time. My ability to feel and follow the prompting of the Spirit was far better than I have experienced in at least a couple of months. I guess Joseph Smith's experience when he was translating applies to us all. He and Emma had a disagreement, he could not translate until he had gone down and made things right with his wife. I experienced the same thing this last week. I have been struggling, especially with my Elders Quorum lesson coming up and 2 or 3 previous ones. I couldn't figure out why I was having such a hard time. Now I understand, I was not thinking right or clearly. My relationship with my wife was strained because of the mess my head was in. I could not get the guidance that I so desperately need when teaching these lessons because I needed to make things right, in my head, and especially with my wife.
This weekend has been a great one. I didn't realize how much I rely on the Spirit for these lessons, I also didn't realize how much I rely on the Spirit for the everyday things in my life. I am so thankful that I was able to make things right last week. It is truly a good feeling. I am once again reminded how good my sweet wife if for me. I really don't know what I would do without her there to help me work through the trials in my life. She can see clearly when I cannot see myself.