Time Flies!

Wow, I cannot believe how long it has been since I last wrote. Things get busy and time slips past. Barbie has gone to California to see her grandmother who is not doing so well. She has lung cancer. The last couple of days leading up to her departure today has been very busy. I finally took her to a movie after Spanish class last night. We went to see City of Ember. It was nothing like the book, and somewhat disappointing. Barbie and I had the whole theater to ourselves. We didn't know what to think, I have never had that happen before. We didn't even make out, seems like a shame to waste the opportunity. (Barbie and I are just not like that, she thinks making out is gross. I agree especially when it is in a public place, even if we are alone.) The next couple of days are going to be crazy. Barbie does a ton of stuff everyday, I am only trying to do part of what she does and I am overwhelmed by it. The next two days are going to be extra hectic with Halloween and all.

I really don't have much to say tonight, I miss Barbie, I was starting to miss her before she even left. I left to go to work this morning before she left and felt very strongly that I shouldn't have. I took care of one thing at work and turned around and came home. I am glad I did. Barbie was very sad when I left, I could sense it. I was able to help her work out a couple of things for her trip. Her sister said that there were no hotel rooms available, so I made a phone call and reserved a room for her. Thinking back on it I don't think that Barb would have got a room if I had done it for her. Reserving the room was only part of it. I was then able to convince my father-in-law to take our van instead of his truck with a camper. Barbie tried this as well, but failed. I am glad I was able to convince them to take the van, I am certain that their trip will be much more pleasant.

It has been a long time since I just took charge and did anything like the movie, or getting a room, or convincing someone to alter their plans. Or, like the pictures, learned to play the guitar, or gone to a ward Valentine dance with my wife. Barb pointed out recently that I am not the same confident take charge person that she married. After getting mad about her pointing that out I realized that she was right. I have determined to stop taking no for an answer, and to stop giving up without even trying like I have been doing lately. The last couple of days since I decided this have been great. I feel like myself again, I feel the confidence, the drive to succeed that has been missing. Barbie has noticed as well. It is a good feeling.